Topic starter : Friday, November 20, 2009 (11:25 pm)

*groookk.. groookk.. whaddup? :p*

Before I forget.. I want to share the story of a frog :p

A frog who appeared out of nowhere in my bathroom many days ago.

And then as soon as he appeared, he was gone without leaving any trails behind.

But then..

He appeared again, that time he was in my bedroom.

And *pooff* he was gone again.

And I had my peace without having to worry about his sudden appearance anymore.

But my peace was soon to be broken only couple of days after.

Another frog jumped into my bedroom.

How can I be sure that it was a different frog?

Well.. the first one was a skinny young frog.

And the second one was a much bigger one and looked kinda old.

And this time.. I think I finally able to learn something from him.

After he was jumping here and there..

I managed to corner him to the little space between the place where I kept my clothes and the wall and in order not to let the frog get out, I put a shoebox to close the entrance.

And here is my first lesson of the frog.

He tried to escape by jumping.

Many times he failed for he jumped too low than the shoebox I put in front of him.

But without hesitation and with the spirit of never giving up.. he tried again and again and again..

And he managed to escape!!

Oohh, woooww!!

So I guess the lesson that he wanted me to learn is about these ones :

- jump a little bit higher
- try a little bit harder

Hmm.. is that so, froggie?

Maybe you’re right.

I should’ve tried a little bit harder and not easily given up whenever I was stumbled :p

And I thought that was the only lesson that frog wanted me to learn so I was kinda relief that as soon as I grabbed that lesson, again.. he was gone!

But oh boy ooohh boyy..

I was too soon to feel glad!

For the next night he was there again.. this time back to the first place I met his ‘brother’, yupp.. in the bathrom!!

Before I continue..

Here’s the thing..

Frogs aren’t my favourite so I don’t know much about them.

But come to think again..

I don’t really like to gather facts about things that I like.

I just like them and that’s enough for me, whatever facts they are of the things that I like :p

And I like jumping into conclusions with my own perceptions, not based on facts, wakakakakak..

So this thing I’ve learned is based on what I see without knowing the “facts” about frogs..

Things that from others who know better about frogs might think that well.. it’s the nature of frogs anyway :p

Okay, let’s continue with the bathroom’s scene.

That frog jumped to the top of my bathtub edge and because he felt like there was no way out, he tried the other way.

He then tried to climb the wall and when he sticked his slimy legs on the wall, I got another lesson to learn, which was :

- give it a try no matter how seemingly impossible it is

Well.. at least what that froggie did was a mission impossible for me, ahahahaha :p

But I like the message he brings!

For sometimes you know, impossible means.. I’m possible, wakakakakak..

*as always I like jumping into conclusion :p*

Well.. I left him while he was still sticking his slimy legs on the wall and I continued playing games, ahahaha..

And maybe because that froggie thinks I’ve learned the lesson I needed from him, he was gone again

And hopefullyy..

He won’t come back again, huahahaha..

Sorry, froggie..

I’ve just realized that I love you more when you’re already as fried one, cause seeing you alive somehow makes me shiver, hiii..

I’m so glad I’m more into Cinderella story and NOT too fond of the Frog Prince tale, wakakakakak.. so I don’t have to kiss you just to prove that you aren’t a real prince under a spell, froggie :p

But..

Thanks for the lesson anyway ^o^

Topic ended : November 21, 2009 (2:54 am)

*interupted by playing with Angelicious and cooking at Cafe World, ahahaha :p*

-Indah-

I lovee Cafe World!!

Huahahaha.. this is the newest game that I’m addicted, too :p

And the one that made me didn’t really mind when it took ages to login to Pet Society and sometimes I even forgot to login there just because I was too busy cooking at Cafe World, wakakakakak :p

And tonight I’ve got another “enlightment” that this game, Cafe World, is indeed a fun way to learn about much things.

Noo.. it isn’t related to cooking though it’s a cooking game.

But I think this game teaches us how to maximize your space.

I remodelled my cafe for couple of times to get the maximum use of space so I can put more desks and chairs and everyone would be served by the waiters.

Cause sometimes if you pay any attention on each customer, some of them might not be served by the waiter and if that happens, then probablyy.. there’s something wrong in the way you arrange the desk and the chair.

Aside from the maximum use of space, you ca also learn about timing.

Each food has a certain amount of time to cook.

So you must be sure to do some rollings in cooking so the counters won’t be emptied and the customers won’t get starved.

Another thing you can learn from this game is about expense and revenue.

There’s a description about the cost to buy the food and how much money will you get by serving each food.

You can make a calculation about the profit you will get and not to forget also considering the amount of time to get the food ready to be served.

Interesting game, isn’t it?

I haven’t made any details calculation on which food will give me most profits, ahahaha..

But you can make calculation in case you’re bored in waiting for the meal to be cooked, it’s a good way to keep your brain in active mode.

Just remember..

Don’t use calculator, otree?!

I realized it now that I’m getting slooooowww in calculating even in simple numbers, huahahaha.. because calculator surely makes things easier but it also makes your brain works in slower mode :p

Oohh boyy.. this is what I call a fun learning!

Don’t you just lovee playing games?

Topic ended : November 18, 2009 (8:53 pm)

Nb. For all the Cafe World Lovers out there.. what have you learned from this game? ^o^

-Indah-

This post is about the frog which appeared in my bedroom couple of days ago.

I’m still curious up until now cause I still can’t grab any lessons from his appearance!

I mean.. this is something unusual.

If it’s about mosquito then it might not be any lessons that I should’ve learned, huahahaha :p

(Sorry, mosquitoes.. you appear too often that I started taking you for granted, ahahaha :p)

But a frog?!

A frog?! Out of nowhere?!

He must have brought something for me to learn.

But my mind just can’t seem to interpret anything *sigh*

This brought me back in time when a bird came into my bedroom.

This is taken from my other blog :

http://tottilicious79.multiply.com/journal/item/157/About_A_Bird_Aim_It_The_Right_Way

Originally posted : October 4, 2008

~.*.~

About A Bird : Aim It The Right Way

Hai, D, apa kabar? Baik2 aja? Semoga yaa ^o^

Anywayy, D.. Masih inget ga soal burung yang lagi itu terjebak di kamar gua?

Kalau ngga inget juga ngga apa2 sih, hahaha :p

Cuman belakangan ini gua lagi kepikiran sesuatu..

Bukan.. Bukan soal pertanda baik apa seperti yang si Gwen katakan.

Gua lagi mikir, apa sih yang tuh burung mau gua pelajari dari dirinya?

Hal apa yang lagi2 gua missed mendapatkan pesan pentingnya?

Kala itu yang bisa gua pikirkan cuman satu, yaitu : temukan sasaran yang tepat maka elo akan bisa mencapainya ^o^

Sampai sekarang juga gua ga bisa memikirkan message lain dari tuh burung sih.

Soalnya hal yang dilakukan tuh burung selama berulang2 di kamar gua adalah :

Menetapkan sasaran yang kelewat tinggi di pintu keluar dan sasaran terbang yang kelewat rendah di jendela.

Well..

Yang di jendela sih doesn’t really matter karena toh no way out juga melalui jendela.

Tapi mungkin yang tuh burung mau gua pelajari darinya adalah..

Tetapkan sasaran yang tepat walau itu mungkin lebih rendah dari harapan elo tapi dengan begitu elo akan menemukan jalan keluar dari permasalahan yang elo hadapi.

Gua ngeliatnya nih burung lebih fokus menabrak jendela karena pas mengarah ke jendela, terbangnya itu pakai acara trial and error dalam artian arah terbangnya kadang naik, kadang turunan dikit walaupun kisarannya ya di situ2 aja sebenarnya :p

Tapi ketika terbang ke arah pintu, dia keukeuh ngga berkutik di kisaran terbang dengan ketinggian selalu di atas batas teratas pintu, ngga mau lower down a bit.

Padahal kalau dia terbang lebih menukik ke bawah dikit aja, dia akan found the way out.

Maybe that bird wanted to tell me that all these times I was focusing on the wrong thing?

Maybe gua terlalu sibuk pontang panting menjaga sang ‘jendela’ dan tidak menggubris sang ‘pintu’ makanya gua always got trapped in the same problems?

Beberapa waktu lalu sebelum libur Lebaran, ngga tau kenapa tiba2 gua kepikiran kalau gua harus made peace with my ‘volcano’, ada something inside of me yang menyuruh gua untuk ‘merangkul’ sang ‘volcano’ dan mengajaknya berdamai.

Berkali2 ajakan itu bermain dalam pikiran gua tapi gua mengacuhkannya. Dan ego gua menahan gua untuk mengibarkan bendera putih tanda gencatan senjata and sebagai ajakan untuk berdamai.

Again, maybe I was listening to the wrong ‘voice’? That is why gua jadi teringat kembali akan si burung yang sempat terjebak dalam kamar gua?!

Ahh.. Burung, lain kali elo gua kursus-in berbicara ala manusia atau menulis dalam bahasa Indonesia dhee sehingga elo bisa langsung ngomong ke gua tentang apa yang elo ingin gua pelajari dari dirimu ^o^

Okee dokee, D.. Until then..

Ciaoo cito, babee..

Amore,

Indah

~.*.~

And this made me realized that I should’ve had a better filing system, huahahaha.. It took me a while to get the posting I wanted :p

And since my old computer crashed, I had no back up, huhuhu..

But hmm.. isn’t it interesting how something can lead you into another one?

A lesson you might’ve learned but sometimes missed?

Well, froggie..

I’ll get your lesson, one way or another!

It’s okay if now I might not get it yet.

But promise me something, froggie..

Next time you visit me again.

Please let me learn something from you, alright?

Topic ended : November 16, 2009 (9:50 am)

-Indah-

I’ve realized it now..

I don’t want to just do something..

But I want one which I can connect to.

One that I can “feel”.

One I can relate to while I’m doing it.

Even if it means I have to wait for some time then it’s fine by me.

For I want the “product” of what I do to have a soul of its own.

A soul that I need not to explain but will have a voice of its own.

And how can I ever give it one if I myself is soul-less while I’m doing what I do?

Mmm..

I don’t know for what reasons but..

These last couple of days.. I just lost that soul within me..

Don’t feel like doing anything, huhuhu..

I’ve tried to check my emotion, well.. not in a good condition but I can’t say that it’s in a bad condition either, just in a flat line.

And consciouslyy.. I’m not worried about anything, I guess..

So I don’t know where my soul is wandering around right now.

But I miss it so much!

My soul.. my soul..

Where are you?

Are you lost and just can’t find a way back to me?

Please listen carefully, my soul.

For you might hear me calling for you.

Just ignore all the other voices out there that might confuse you.

Close your eyes and listen with your heart.

There you might hear me calling you desperately to come back.

Please find your way back to me, my soul.

I can’t do anything without you.

I miss you.. I miss you so much!

Did I do something wrong to you so that you ran away from me?

If so, why don’t you just come and talk to me about it?

For I really have no idea what I did wrong, my soul.

Aahh..

I really need that spirits back.

The flame is becoming weaker, I can sense it somehow.

And only you, my soul, can make it alive again.

Don’t ask me how I know, for I just know.

So, please, my soul..

Make peace with me?

And come back soon!

I can’t barely hold on without you..

Topic ended : November 14, 2009 (6:45 pm)

-Indah-

Bukannya mikirin something to createe tapii.. malah ngubek2 postingan lama untuk di-post kembali di tempat yang lain, wakakakakak :p

Duhh.. ntahlaahh.. beberapa hari ini lagii soo very mentok ide, baik buat nulis ataupun buat ngegambar, soo not in the mood, mo ngapa2in rasanya males les less..

Jadilah gua ngubek2 postingan2 lama gua di Blogdrive.. nyari2 judul yang menarik hati lalu melahap abis apa2 yang pernah gua post.

Hmm..

Ternyataa.. ada gunanya juga gua selalu nulis to say things for myself, jadii pas baca2 ulang, gua masih bisa konek ama apa yang gua tulis, wakakakakak :p

And again.. I want to share this one for youu..

Met menikmati Kamis malam yang dingin inii karena tadi khan abis diguyur ujaann..

Aahh.. don’t you just lovee to smell the grounds after the rain?

Oh btw, this one’s taken from my other blog :

http://living-in-wonderland.blogdrive.com/comments?id=107

Originally posted on March 11, 2009.

~.*.~

Tonight is so very beautiful ‘bo!

Tenang, gua ngga akan berpuisi ria, bukannya ngga mau tapi kaga bisa, ahahaha :p

Anywayy, coba dhe sempatkan menengok langit malam ini.

Dan tataplah bintang yang berkerlap kerlip di atas sana.

Dan juga bulan yang malam ini bersinar dengan terangnya.

So beautiful.

Didampingi dengan awan tipis yang menggelayut di gelapnya langit.

Hmm..

Baru tadi siang disinggung2 soal langit, bintang, bulan dan sebagainya, eehh, malam ini berhasil menikmati 3 di antara yang siang tadi disinggung2, hihihi

Ketika menatap bulan purnama yang bersinar terang itu, gua jadi menyadari..

Bahwa semua ciptaan Tuhan bisa dijadikan sebagai simbol harapan!

Just choose any kind of God’s creation and you’ll be amazed of the wonders it brings!

Search for it and you will find what you’ve been looking for.

As for the moon that shines brightly tonight..

Melihat pendaran cahayanya yang malam ini luar biasa berkilau, membuat gua teringat akan inner beauty.

Kalau ngga salah inget, dulu salah satu guru gua ada yang bilang kalau bulan itu ngga memancarkan sinarnya sendiri.

Bulan menyerap cahaya matahari, dan ketika tiba gilirannya matahari untuk rehat dari tugasnya, bulan yang telah menyimpan cahaya mentari, mulai membuka cadangan cahaya yang disimpannya dan kilauan cahaya dari dalam dirinya itu pada akhirnya memancar keluar dan membuat seluruh permukaannya berkilau.

Begitu juga dengan kebaikan.

Mungkin pada awalnya kita hanya menyerap kebaikan yang kita terima dari orang di sekitar kita.

Namun pada waktunya nanti, kebaikan yang kita terima itu akan kita kembalikan ke orang lain dan kebaikan itu membawa cahayanya sendiri dan untuk setiap perbuatan baik yang kita lakukan akan meninggalkan percikan cahaya di wajah kita.

Sedikit demi sedikit, lama2 menjadi bukit!

Dari hanya sekedar percikan cahaya, pada akhirnya seluruh permukaan wajah akan menjadi bercahaya yang bersumber dari hati.

Sekarang kita ke bintang.

As for the stars that are twinkling in the night sky..

Jadi teringat ama lagunya Utopia yang ‘Antara Ada & Tiada’, bukankah demikian juga adanya dengan bintang?

They are there but sometimes we just don’t see them.

Mungkin karena tertutup pekatnya langit malam.

Atau bersembunyi di balik awan yang masih setia menghiasi langit malam.

Atau karena mereka menjauh sehingga mata telanjang kita ngga bisa melihatnya dengan jelas.

Dan bintang juga bikin gua teringat akan quotes dari film, tapi aduuhh gua lupa, ahaha..

Pokoknya yang nyinggung2 soal ‘sesuatu’ itu ada di sana whether we see it or not.

Ada yang inget ga quotes lengkapnya gimana? Kalau ga salah seeh dari film ‘City of Angels’ dhe

Bintang juga buat gua melambangkan bahwa each of us is special in our own ways.

Others might not be able to see our glows but we do have that glowing things inside us!

And just because others might not see it, doesn’t make us less special the way we are, don’t you think?

And as for the skyy..

Sky is life’s biggest canvas!

You can paint it all you like and absorb the beauty.

Hidup itu merupakan campuran berbagai warna dan rasa yang semua bercampur menjadi satu menjadi perpaduan yang indah untuk dipandang dan ketika dikecap, cita rasanya yang manis, asam, asin, pahit, pedas, dan segar meninggalkan kesan mendalam yang membuat sang penikmat ingin mencicipinya lagi dan lagi.

God is so amazing!

Ntah udah berapa banyak lukisan langit yang bisa kita nikmati setiap saat sejak jaman penciptaan dulu.

Sometimes the greatest things in life are free!

Yaa..

Bukan dalam wujud barang.

Tapi simply the beauty of nature.

Dan jangan lupakan..

Cinta

Love is supposed to be free and ngga terbelenggu.

Hmm..

Pasti indah bangets ya memandang langit malam dari tempat terbuka

Apalagi kalau langit sedang bertaburan bintang.

Jadi keinget ama adegan pas si Maya lagi tiduran di rumput sambil memandang langit yang dipenuhi bintang.

Gimana rasanya ya?

Apa perasaan si Maya ketika memandang semua keindahan alam itu?

Apa yang sedang dia pikirkan ketika menatap langit malam itu?

Tonight is so beautiful..

So beautiful that makes me want to cry..

Tetap aja mellow, huehehe :p

-Indah-

Kadang gua pikir selain nulis.. gua perlu ngebaca2 apa yang gua tulis, hihihi.. karena terkadaaangg.. within time.. the “message” dari apa yang dulu pernah gua tulis itu bisa jadi masih “berlaku” untuk situasi yang gua hadapi sekarang :p

Ada untungnya juga gua bikin backup blog buat Blogdrive, jadii.. sambil copas postingan2 lamaa ke blog baru di WordPress.. gua jadi baca2 lagee apa yang dulu pernah gua tulis and kadang pas baca jadi suka ber-oohh wooww.. dulu kayanya gua lebih “bijaksana” dibanding sekarang yang lebih sering nyungsep, wakakakakak :p

And here’s another old post I want to share with you

Dari blog gua di Blogdrive :

http://living-in-wonderland.blogdrive.com/comments?id=69

Original post ini tanggal 23 February 2009 and I guess this is another “message” untuk menguatkan gua di saat gua sedang lemah, hehehe..

You know khan.. the right message will come to the right person at the right time?

Soo.. maybe sekarang waktu buat gua untuk mendapatkan kembali pesan yang dulu pernah gua tulis untuk diri gua sendiri, ahahahaha

~.*.~

Gua lagi mikir2, kayanya seringkali ketika gua marah ma seseorang, sebenarnya gua lagi marah ma diri gua sendiri.

Kenapa bisa githu?

I’m mad at myself because I didn’t see it coming!

I should’ve read all the signs!

That would save me much time and prevented me in caught up in the situation I got myself into this person!

Tapi terkadang ketika gua marah ma seseorang, itu karena gua lagi marah ama diri gua.

Gua marah karena udah ‘terjebak’ dalam situasi seperti ini, gua cannot do something to help that person.

Kemarahan yang gua tujukan ke orang itu sebenarnya gua arahkan ke diri gua, huehehe :p

Like right now..

I’m mad at someone.

Sebenarnya dia ngga melakukan apa2 ke gua sih.

Tapi gua sebel aja dia ngga melakukan sesuatu dari sejak benih permasalahannya masih belum mengeluarkan kuncup.

In a way gua ngerasa dia malah memberikan pupuk dan rajin menyirami benih itu sehingga tumbuh subur seperti sekarang.

I hate that.

Karena ini bukan ‘bencana’ yang masuk kategori bencana alam yang mana kita ga punya kendali atasnya.

Ini lebih ke masalah bencana yang sebenarnya bisa diminimalisir efeknya andai meluangkan waktu untuk membabat habis rumput2 liar yang baru tumbuh sebelum bertumbuh pesat menjadi seperti sekarang bagaikan belantara hutan dan kita terjebak di dalamnya.

And you know, ada yang bilang kalau malam2 itu khan jangan berada di dekat tanaman karena kita harus berbagi oksigen dengannya.

Naahh..

Ini jadinya kekurangan oksigen dhe di tengah lebatnya rumput2 liar yang tumbuh ngga terkendali.

Buat napas normal sekalipun udah susah.

Apalagi kalau lagi terhimpit masalah khan kita butuh untuk menarik napas panjaaaang.

Waaaahhh..

Susah dhee buat napas dengan lega, huhuhu..

Yes, I’m mad at you and I even said to someone who knew you that I didn’t feel sorry for you.

But why do I feel the guilt?

Not the guilt because I didn’t feel sorry for you.

But it’s more because I couldn’t do anything to help you.

I’m sorry..

I wish I had been in a better situation right now so that gua bisa help you bernapas lebih legaan sekarang ini.

Not solving your problem ‘coz I know your problems are lot deeper than this.

And I’m not a capable person to help you cut the roots.

Tuhan.. Tuhan..

Berapa lama lagi ujian itu harus berlangsung?

Belum cukupkah dia mendapatkan pelajaran dari ujian itu?

Gua jadi keinget ma lagu berikut :

Di saat badai bergelora
Ku akan terbang bersamaMu
Bapa, Kau raja atas semesta
Ku tenang s’bab Kau Allah-ku

And gua baru nyadar ‘boo..

Sabtu, 21 Februari 2009 kemarin ini pada lagi gonta ganti channel mau nyari siarannya Pdt. Gilbert Lumoindong di Trans 7, I was hooked ama khotbah yang ditayangkan di CTV Banten.

From the very first time I heard his preach, I was so hooked with every word he said.

Pendeta ini menceritakan tentang lukisan yang diterimanya 53 tahun yang lalu dari seorang temannya.

Lukisan yang selama 53 tahun menemaninya melalui berbagai macam badai kehidupan.

Sebuah lukisan yang menggambarkan seorang pemudi yang sedang memegang kemudi kapal yang dibawanya menerjang badai.

Di belakang pemuda itu, berdirilah Tuhan Yesus.

Sebelah tanganNya menunjukkan arah ke depan dan pandangan pemuda itu tertuju pada arah yang ditunjukkan Tuhan Yesus.

Dan sebelah tangan Tuhan yang lainnya, memegang bahu pemuda itu.

In terms of troubles.

Di saat badai menghantam kehidupan kita.

Seringkali kita lupa bahwa Tuhan ngga pernah meninggalkan kita.

Dia selalu ada bersama dengan kita.

Menjaga kita dan memastikan kita tetap berjalan menuju arah yang benar.

Namun seringkali kita merasa ditinggalkan.

Seringkali kita mengeraskan hati sehingga ngga bisa merasakan tangan Tuhan yang memegang bahu kita, tanda bahwa Ia akan selalu menyertai kita menghadapi setiap badai dalam kehidupan kita.

Seringkali kita merasa kehilangan kasihNya ketika harus mengalami cobaan demi cobaan.

Karena kalau Tuhan sungguh mengasihi kita, bagaimana mungkin Dia membiarkan semuanya ini terjadi dalam hidup kita?

Bagaimana mungkin Tuhan merenggut semua kebahagiaan kita?

Kenapa hidup kok akrab bener dengan yang namanya penderitaan?

Tapi terkadang kalau mau jujur..

Seringkali kita tahu arah mana yang harus kita tempuh tapi berhubung ngga sesuai ama yang kita mau maka kita memilih untuk ngga melewatinya.

Kalau mau jujur..

Lebih sering berkeluh kesah ma Tuhan kala menghadapi cobaan tapi pas sedang diberikan banyak berkat, sering bener lupa untuk mengucapkan syukur.

Kalau mau jujur lagii..

Kalau mau ‘hitung2an’ ma Tuhan, pasti dhee malu ati sendiri karena Tuhan telah sedemikian baiknya dalam hidup kita.

Betapapun seringnya kita menjauh darinya, Dia tetap baik sama kita.

Balik ke soal pendeta tadi.

At the end of the program, gua nunggu2 credit title-nya, pengen tau siapa seeh nama nih pendeta.

Ternyata ‘boo..

Dia adalah..

Charles Stanley!

Oh myy..

Di tahun 2007 di kala gua masih intens dengerin siaran radio Heartline FM, siaran dr. Charles Stanley versi terjemahan itu adalah acara yang paling gua nanti2kan.

Karena ucapannya itu straight to the point, lugas and ‘ngena’ di hati gua.

Tapi di tahun 2008, gua udah males mendengarkan Heartline, hehehe..

Soo..

Gua ngerasa bukan kebetulan kemarin ini gua ‘nemu’ siaran itu.

And tadi pagi gua keinget ma lagu di atas.

And siang menjelang sore tadi gua baru tau soal badai yang lagi menggelora dalam kehidupan orang yang gua ceritain di atas yang bikin gua marah ama dia (tapi lebih ke marah ma diri gua :p).

Tuhan.. Tuhan..

Itu yang Tuhan mau kami pegang selama badai ini masih berlangsung khan?

Untuk tetap percaya bahwa Tuhan tidak akan pernah meninggalkan kami sendirian menghadapi badai ini?

Dan seperti lagunya Chrisye, badai yang satu ini pasti akan berlalu juga khan, Tuhan?

I love seeing the sky.

When I was in my lowest moment of my life back in 2006 and 2007, ketika gua menatap langit, gua menemukan sebuah harapan masih menggantung di sana.

Bahwa everything would be alright, this was just a phase I had to go through in my life.

I love seeing the sky because in the same sky, people can see different things.

Itu menjadi semacam pengingat buat gua bahwa hidup juga seperti itu.

Pahit ataupun manis, terkadang tergantung bagaimana kita melihatnya.

Terkadang mungkin kita harus mengecap yang pahit dulu untuk bisa lebih mensyukuri rasa manis.

Terkadang gua pikir hidup itu seperti menelan obat.

Rasa obat itu mungkin pahit tapi mau ngga mau kita harus menelannya kalau emang ingin sembuh.

Kemarin ini pas lagi ngobrol ama temen gua, dia bilang gini ke gua :

Kayanya ya, Dah, no matter how hard life feels for us now, couple of years from now, when we look back at today.. We’re getting better, don’t you think?

Yupp.. Indeed, gua setuju ama dia.

Khan ada yang bilang tuh kita belajar paling banyak di saat kita sedang mengalami kesusahan.

Tentu saja ketika sedang mengalaminya, kita ngga merasakan senangnya harus merasakan itu, tapi ketika udah berhasil melaluinya, wuiihh..

Kebahagiaannya jadi dobel dhe aww, ahahaha..

Tapi tetap seeh gua ngga mau welcoming problems in my life, huehehe..

Sekarang ini udah cukup banyak yang perlu dicari penyelesaiannya, I don’t need new ones.

So, problems, monggo2 mampir dulu ke kehidupan orang lain yaa, gua sih otree2 it’s dhe biar kata gilirannya dilewatin dikau, ahahaha :p

Di saat badai bergelora
Ku akan terbang bersamaMu
Bapa, Kau raja atas semesta
Ku tenang sebab Kau Allah-ku

-Indah-

~.*.~

Have a happy lifee ^o^

-Indah-

(aahh aahh.. jadi nulis nama sendiri ampe dua kalee :p)

Aaahh.. notes-kuu.. lama tak bersua dengan dirimuu..

*lebayy padahal terakhir masih disambangi hari Minggu kemaren :p*

Sebenernyaa.. ada yang pengen gua omongin ama dirimuu..

Apa dayaa.. hari ini ada kejadian ngga mengenakkan yang bikin semuanya menguapp..

Eehh.. untungnya ngga sepenuhnya ngilang di udara seehh.. karena udah gua tulis di buku, huahahaha..

Yoii.. sejak.. hmm.. let’s see..

Sejak 27 Oktober lalu gua putuskan untuk back to manual alias kembali menyiapkan buku untuk mencatat pikiran2 yang melintas di otak gua.

Karena gua pengen tauu.. apaan aja sih yang seharian berkeliaran di otak :p

Well..

So far so good seehh..

Maksudnya gua masih tetap konsisten memberdayagunakan tuh buku, walau kadang ngga tiap hari juga, ahahahahaa..

And akhirnya tuh buku juga ngga sepenuhnya jadi tempat menangkap flashing thoughts karena kadang jadi ajang buat nulis postingan juga :p

Yaahh.. whatever fungsinya ituu..

Moga2 sih in time bakal bisa bikin gua ngerti lebih lagi tentang apa seeh yang paling sering nyantol di pikiran gua, huahahaha..

And juga lebih bisa mengklasifikasikan hal apa yang sering jadi trigger kacaunya perasaan gua :p

Huaa.. ngga tau aah mo ngomong apaan lagee..

See you some other time dhe yaa..

Topic ended : November 10, 2009 (3:59 pm)

-Indah-

Couple of days ago, I was watching a TV show, nearly at the end of its show.

There was an old woman who was being hypnotized by the talent of the show.

Under that “spell”, she was singing a heartbreaking song about a man who left his wife for another woman.

Hmm..

I don’t know why but hearing her singing that song, I immediately jumped into conclusion that she might be singing the story of her life.

And somehow I guess I was right.

Right after the talent of the show released her from the hypnotize, she then said that she hated men but she didn’t want to talk about it any further, she only said that as for the moment, she only lived for her children only.

Somehow..

I felt sad when hearing her said that, I could sense her bitterness when saying those words and those looks in her face.

Wondering what that one specific man (this case I assumed it’s her husband or should I say, ex husband) had done to her that made her come to that state.

Personally..

I guess I have this tendency on blaming women in terms of affairs.

I hate myself for thinking this way but just can’t help but feeling this way :p

Maybe because I know men are weak, especially when it comes to the temptation of women!

You know the famous sayings..

Men fall for women whileas women fall for money?!

Sadyly to say but reality speaks that way in general.

Soo..

It’s a woman’s job to stay away from any unavailable men!

I still can’t understand whyy oohh whyy..

A woman have a heart to hurt another woman!

I know these days it’s soo hard to find one decent man to share the rest of your life with.

But..

Do you think by taking away someone’s husband won’t make you be in the position of his ex-wife?

If that man could leave his wife for you.. how can you be sure there won’t be another woman who will take your place that will take him away from you, too?!

And I also know that it takes two to tango.

No matter how much a woman seduces a man, if that man doesn’t fall into that temptation then there will be no affair, right?

And I know that love might die within time.

But let them die first and finish whatever things and commitments they have before you come interfering their relationships.

And I especially can’t understand when the other woman is also the wife’s best friend!

Ohh myy goodiebag!!

I mean.. helloo?!

How could you do that?!

Even with strangers, I still can’t understand whyy..

But when you know for sure it’s your best friend’s husband and you still take him away from her?

Myy oohh myy..

Are you really that desperate in finding a husband?! *toeng*

Then I guess it’s all comes down to this again..

Balance.

We have to balance our mind and our heart.

There’s time to listen to our mind and there’s time to listen to our heart.

It’s true that sometimes we can’t choose who we’re falling in love with for that feelings sometimes just growing in your heart.

But..

When you know that the man (or woman) you’re falling in love with isn’t an available one, it’s time for your mind to talk some common sense to yourself that you should listen to!

Tame your heart and listen to your mind.

Even when you feel that the other person is your “right” one, the “one” you’ve been waiting for your whole life!

Hmm..

I don’t know..

But I personally think that one happiness shouldn’t be based on another person’s sufferings, especially when you’re the reason why they suffer!

I personally know that I can’t be happy when I know that on my way to get my happiness, I hurt another persons intendedly.

And somehow I always believe..

If you two are meant to be together..

In your remaining time here on this Earth, you will meet your other half again.

And that time when that person is already available, maybe then it’s the right time for the two of you to continue whatever things that was one blooming.. if.. that feeling is still “there”.

Aahh.. hypnotize.. hypnotize..

Don’t play with this thing :p

Topic ended : November 8, 2009 (2:41 pm)

-Indah-

Have you ever heard about this :

Be careful of what you wish for?

Well..

It’s true!!

Be careful of what you wish for!

For sometimes you do get what you wish.. but NOT in the way you want it to, wakakakakak :p

Take me for example

Couple of days agoo..

I was soo fed up with my routinity at the office.

And I felt soo bored.

I wish oohh how I wish I could have some days off, awayy from the office.

And guess what..

God granted my wishes.

I did have a day off, away from the office.

Because..

I was sick, wakakakakakk :p

Thursday night.. got high fever..

This is a lesson for me since the very beginning of the year, a lesson I should’ve learned but I kept forgetting since I kept on tumbling down on the same thing over and over again.

Maybe this year is a year for me to handle my emotions better.

A year for me to mm.. I guess to be a little more expressive in voicing my emotions.

A year for me to take control in absorbing others’ emotions.

Cause I don’t know..

3 times a year with high fever more than 39 Celcius degrees.. hmm.. there must be something wrong, right?

And the triggers were always because I kept my emotions while I should’ve just let it pass through me and set it free.

I was angryy and sad at the same time.. but a part of me just wouldn’t let me to feel that wayy..

And the battle within began..

And my body just couldn’t handle it, huahahaha..

And there goes the high fever thingy :p

And this time.. well.. a little bit complicated with soo many other diseases as well, huahahahaha..

Let’s see..

Thursday night.. besides the high fever.. I also got this toothache and headache (although the headache might be because of my high fever).

And Fridayy.. well.. still got a little high fever and toothache, not much headache but this time with stomache, wakakakakak..

And as for Saturdayy..

My body’s temparature has dropped to 36 Celcius degrees but the stomache remains with less headache and less toothache.

Hmm.. great!

With these many diseases at a time, hopefully I won’t be sick again in near future :p

The good thing iss..

Because I had soo many other “aches”, my tootache this time didn’t really hurt that much, huahahaha..

But this got me thinking again..

Maybee..

Maybee all these times God did grant some of our wishes but because what He gave didn’t come as the same package as we asked Him.. oftentimes we missed His “blessings”.

And this reminds me again of the “lesson” I’ve got in late 2007.

http://tottilicious79.multiply.com/journal/item/27/American_Garden

Oohh myy.. I kept forgetting about that lesson :p

Maybe besides having to learn to control my emotion, this is one other lesson for me to learn, ehh?

Well..

Happy Saturdayy ^o^

Oohh btw.. it rained hard last night, yihaa!!

Take care, friends

Topic ended : November 7, 2009 (5:44 pm)

-Indah-

I want to dedicate this song for myself.

You can watch the video clip here :

And I get the lyric from :

http://www.lyricsyoulove.com/j/jessica_simpson/still_beautiful/

(But I modified some part with the lyric from : http://www.metrolyrics.com/still-beautiful-lyrics-jessica-simpson.html => couldn’t copy paste from here :p)

So, Indah, this one’s for you and please pay attention on the lyric, alright?

~.*.~

“Still Beautiful”
By Jessica Simpson

I have always believed
God won’t give me more than I can handle
But sometimes when it’s so hard
And I’m falling apart
I wonder if I can take this hurt
I’m going through
But I know no matter what I do

They won’t all be sunny days
Life’s gonna bring out some rain
But after it’s over
I’ll be that much stronger for the pain
So even when I’m sad
I know everyday I have is still beautiful

Still beautiful

There have been times in my life
When all of my skies were blue and were so wide open
But lately all of my dreams seem so out of reach
And everything feels so broken

But it can’t last too long
So I’ll just keep on holding on

They won’t all be sunny days
Life’s gonna bring out some rain
But after it’s over
I’ll be that much stronger for the pain
So even when I’m sad
I know everyday I have is still beautiful

We’re all gonna cry sometimes
We’re all gonna hurt sometimes
But it takes the good and the bad
The happy and sad to make you feel alive

They won’t all be sunny days
Life’s gonna bring out some rain
But after it’s over
I’ll be that much stronger for the pain

I know I’ll be alright
Long as you’re here by my side
So even when I’m sad
I know everyday I have is still beautiful
Still beautiful

~.*.~

I have always believed
God won’t give me more than I can handle

=> It’s true.. but I also know that it’s harder to feel that way when you’re in the middle of the storm itself.

But sometimes when it’s so hard
And I’m falling apart
I wonder if I can take this hurt

=> You said it all, Jessica.. you said it all..

They won’t all be sunny days
Life’s gonna bring out some rain

=> Hmm.. it’s true.. we need both sun and rain to survive in this world. Too much sun will make us get sunburned and dehidration whileas too much rain will cause flood :p

But after it’s over
I’ll be that much stronger for the pain

=> Hopefullyy.. hopefullyy.. I can hold on until it’s over..

So even when I’m sad
I know everyday I have is still beautiful

=> Hmm.. that’s right, Indah!! Keep that in mind!!

There have been times in my life
When all of my skies were blue and were so wide open

=> Hmm.. wondering how long have it been?

But lately all of my dreams seem so out of reach
And everything feels so broken

=> You said it again, Jessica.. you said it again!!

But it can’t last too long
So I’ll just keep on holding on

=> And it’s also true, Indaaahh!! All you have to do now is just hold on, a little longer until all these things passed you by..

We’re all gonna cry sometimes

=> *hiks hiks huaa*

We’re all gonna hurt sometimes

=> *sigh*

But it takes the good and the bad
The happy and sad to make you feel alive

=> Hmm.. again it’s true.. “good” and “happy” soon or later will lost their meanings if you haven’t experienced the “bad” and “sad” And I want to feel alive so maybe this is just a phase I have to go through..

Ahh.. Jessicaa.. thank you for the lovely song with such meaningful lyric.

I need this now.

So, Indahh.. just fight it, okayy? You’re never alone for I will always be here with you.

If you’re going down, I’m going down, too.. but I’ll try to hold you as much as I can before we both sink down too deep.

But I can’t do it alone.

You have to help me, too, alright?

I need to see those sparkles again.

I need those spirits back!

We can win over this, Indaaahh.. just don’t give up now!

*sometimes I feel like I’m going crazy for talking to myself :p*

Topic ended : November 6, 2009 (10:47 am)

-Indah-